Month 2 Lunar Moon of Challenge
Polarize * Stabilize * Challenge
August 23, 2017 – September 19, 2017
August 23, 2017, Malkut Sepheroth, Planetary East
Wednesday, Yellow Magnetic Human, Kin 92, Crown Chakra
The Solar Eclipse
Well, as Dorothy said to Toto in the Wizard of Oz, “Toto, I don’t think we’re in Kansas anymore!” That’s what Miri and Miriam were saying to each other! “I don’t think we’re in the Old World anymore!” Wow! Chapter 30 Day 12 The Wizard of Da’at
At the time of the Eclipse, I did not have the special glasses, and I just sat on my patio and meditated. We were not in the total Eclipse line, however, I had remembered being in a partial eclipse during my youth. For 2 days prior to the Eclipse, my energy had been very low. At the start of the Eclipse, I wasn’t breathing normally, and I felt like I was in some kind of vise or contraction device.
When the midpoint of the Eclipse came, which I knew to be 11:45, I felt a shift, and my breathing returned to normal and I began to feel an expansion begin. My body no longer felt restricted, and I felt I would be feeling better and better. Not all of a sudden, but that this feeling would roll out as a feeling of well being and trust. At the time, I remember saying I am experiencing Zero Point at this moment.
I had given a friend of mine a distant healing ( (Chapter 28 Day 2 Hand Positions) before the Eclipse. She had a lot of pain, and I didn’t want to wait until after the Eclipse. The Distance Healing felt normal and I didn’t notice anything particularly unusual.
I have been aware of many beliefs and teachings of various healing modalities:
- Being a surrogate is dangerous because one is actually taking on the beingness of the person being healed. One can keep the injuries if the healing is not successful.
- In the 12 steps of Alanon, there is great emphasis on not taking on the darkness of your partners’ illness. Always be detached from the alcoholic.
- In the laying on of hands by Charismatic Christians, we healed in teams, and the leader determined how many people were needed. There is a great respect of strong teams for safety.
- Tonglen is a Buddhist Practice in which one actually takes on what needs to be transmuted. The Practitioners have learned how to do the transmutation internally. I tried a weekend of training in that and learned that Tonglen, definitely, is not for me.
- Intercession is a big Christian Practice, and often done in groups to make sure the darkness is transmuted into light, in whatever way that group works together.
- I know that other spiritual and religious groups do this work, however I am not as familiar with it. I’ve done some journeying with shamans.
- Now that I’m focused on Sophian Gnostic Christianity, that is my main source of understanding about healing. I have always thought that some of these teachings and beliefs would have to be modified and changed in some way.
My New Experience of Distance Healing
Around 5:00 PM on August 21st, my friend was still in pain. She would be glad to receive more distant healing. I use a large stuffed animal or a puppet for laying on of hands as a surrogate for sending a distant healing. They are the same positions as if I were working in person. See hand positions above for my healing work.
I started at the crown, and I thought I felt a slight “fear of being touched” at that moment. I thought, oh, that’s just my imagination. But then, moving onto the eyes, I felt the same recoiling. The feeling of “touch” is very different than feeling a real person, but it is very accurate. Just like when I “hear” my guidance, it’s not a physical voice, but it’s just as clear.
It was at this point that I began to have a very new experience. I felt the receiver’s sadness of fear of touch. I had no mind activity of what was going on. Although I have a fear of crying, I immediately began to quietly sob. I felt a sense of full cycle and completion. Here, my fear of crying was activated by sensing someone’s fear of touch. For the first time, crying was not uncomfortable to me. It was part of a whole cycle, each part healing the other.
I felt giving fully and deeply as part of deeply receiving. At the same time I felt receiving fully and deeply as part of giving. As I continued the hand positions, I began to realize that my friends body was her little child. It was not her adult self. That was easy to accept because all of my spiritual work has lead to focus on the emotional healing of childhood traumas. This would lead to healing of the physical body, which would lead to the adult healing of the emotional trauma and the physical body. Going back to the original root cause of the trauma heals it up through the timeline.
I continued sobbing as I worked down the entire front of the body. I felt so much peace. I felt we were sealing the healing with the gift of divine love. Divine Love Heals Absolutely. (Chapter 20 Divine Love)
For the first time I experienced “A Course in Miracles” (ACIM) teaching, “Giving and Receiving are the same.” My Heart had lead completely, and not till some time after the experience did my mind begin to comprehend the huge new experience and try to understand it somewhat.
I feel like humanity has gone into a new depth of healing on this side of the Eclipse. Some of the qualities of this new experience were:
The Messiah did the works through me. I was only the channel, the conduit. My mind was not engaged in what was going on. My emotions responded spontaneously.
John 14:10. Jesus speaking:
“Believe thou not that I am in the Father and the Father in me? The words that I speak unto you, I speak not of myself: but the Father that dwells in me, He does works.”
Rabindranath Tagore from Gitanjali:
“This frail vessel Thou emptiest again and again, and fillest it ever with fresh life. This little flute of a reed, Thou hast carried over hills and dales, and hast breathed through it melodies eternally new………..Thy infinite gifts come to me only on these very small hands of mine. Ages pass, and still Thou poorest, and still there is room to fill.”
The Gospel of St Thomas Verse 108:
Jesus said, “She who will drink from my mouth will become like me. I, myself, will become her, and the things that are hidden will be revealed to her.”
In the experience I felt perfect balance, perfect harmony. The healing channel and the one being healed are one. I have always believed that Jesus is united with the ones He is healing. I also feel that He is emotionally present. I am grateful for this new experience, and I welcome the feeling of completion it brings.